I hunger, therefore I am
was my motto at 27
and long before that
I hungered
but knew not what
hunger was.
I satiated my appetite
with danger, lust and
worse, with pain.
I filled the void
like a child instinctively
fills a bucket with sand
and builds a castle.
But I built nothing.
I scratched and clawed
at reason
I bit, and hard
I gnawed at the truth
I swallowed passion like a tonic
and still I searched
for the cure
the meal that would finally
and forever satisfy my hungry
soul - and sometimes I found it
for a moment, with the lights off
on a winding desert road
for an hour in the full moon
face that lit my way
for a day or two
and a night and sometimes more
but as long as I sought
after it
it never lasted.
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